my heart has got a mind of its own

...and it's all because of you.
well, maybe notsomuch.
it's pretty much my heart's fault.
but that's another story for another day of another week of another month of another year.
wait for it.
coming soon to an internet near you.
so anywhooo.
things worked out much better than they should have...and that's pretty much God working in my favor, which constantly makes my soul smile.
i'm not ready.
not like i thought i was.
he's not either.
[no one reads this, right? k...good.]
i mean...it was mostly the idea of getting the whole thing off of my chest and onto the proverbial table that was the fix in my situation.
i hope i didn't put any stress on him...that was not my intention at all.
phone calls are hilarious...especially when you inadvertently say "oh crap" before "hello" and the other person hears you.
harrrrty har har.
going out with those two girls tonight was the pick-me-up that i needed after a phonecall like that. most definitely. you never know how awesome some people are until you spend three hours with them at applebee's.
hah.
well...i suppose i'm off to continue to play sorority life on facebook and maybe other internet-related things...like google...or downloading music...or youtube...or twitter...or whatever. the internet is full of wonderful, newfangled things to do.

nightynight. ;)

we were supposed

to hang today...but that was rudely interrupted by my own problems. ah well. methinks everything happens for some sort of reason...and even the things that seem to not make sense now will somehow come together in the giant patchwork that is my life. it helps to think of things that way, I suppose.
my mouth tastes like perfume, and I do not like this at all. then again, who really likes a cheap-perfume-flavored tongue?
I'm sure someone does.
gosh. I like this guy quite a bit...and it's not like it's not reciprocated, it's just that I can't bring myself to lay down this silly thing called my pride and say, "Hi, __________, I like you a lot."
things like that are much easier thought than said. I'd really like to take a nap right now, but that would probably throw off my sleeping pattern for the rest of the night [and probably the rest of the weekend, truthfully] so I guess I'll sit here and actually watch "Back at the Barnyard" rather than snoring whilst the animals joke about life on the farm.
still.
nothing's really taking my mind off of him...aside from the annoying feeling I have from not going to class today.
that really grinds my gears.
so that's that.


Thursday.

if you have something to say

you should say it right now.
Should I?
Right now?
But he's probably sleeping, and I'm sure it would be rude to wake the people in his house at such an hour.
So I guess I'll wait.
But if you ask me, I'm ready.